It has been a strange time indeed. Just some weird energy in the air. I love this time of year. Those who know me, know that I believe that Halloween should be a stat holiday! I even had one of my children baptized on Halloween. I mean, it’s a thing. But this year, there has been some really heavy energy floating around me and I’m finding it difficult to transition into joy even with all the scary movies and chocolate around me.
I started to think about this idea of transitioning. My children have difficulty (as their teachers tell me) “transitioning” from one task to another. They get involved in a task and they get a little attached to it and don’t want to move onto the next thing….I get it. The dictionary defines transition as ” the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another.” ( dictionary.com, 2018) In Ontario, we are lucky to experience this transition in nature multiple time a year as the seasons shift. I wrote about the transition from summer to fall in my last post, and I thought I had made peace with that shift. But something is still here for me to discover, and like a lot of things it showed up on my mat.
I realized that I struggle with transitions just like my kids. When I was younger, I was a little more carefree. I didn’t like putting down roots and I was always in a state of flux. Although I craved stability, I was ‘better’ at transitioning from one task to the next because I wasn’t attached to any current state. To use a sports analogy, the transition zone is where the rubber hits the road. It’s the place between offense and defence; players need to be flexible and need to be able to read the plays and change at will. When an athlete can play well ‘in transition’ that’s a huge bonus. An athlete that coughs up the ball in transition can cost you the game! The same thing happens in a yoga practice. A well structured class will include many variables one of them being smooth transitions from pose to pose, and segment to segment. However, this is something I struggle with as a teacher and in my own practice. I work on designing practices that feel seamless, but I always get caught up and have to pay extra attention on the transitions.
Obviously, I needed to spend some more time thinking on all of this. I mean, when did I become so fixed and rigid? I realized that as I adopted a more stable lifestlye, I got a little more adept at playing defense. Nothing wrong with that. I got married, I became a mom, I bought a house, I got a dog I have INVESTMENTS!! Why would I want or need to be “flexible” and ready to move from one thing to the next? The thing is, that life throws you all kinds of curve balls, and you need to be prepared for transitions in any area of your life when they show up. If you don’t practice being flexible, you’ll lose that skill….simply put. I noticed that I lost that skill. I lost my ability to flex, and shift with ease. I just got fixed. Attached, clinging, desperate to get back on defence. Instead of being ok with what IS, I am wasting valuable brain power trying to force the world to be the way I want it to be. It’s making this transitional time painful and awkward.
I have saved so many beautiful yoga flows that I want to learn and work on. They all have the same thing in common; beautiful transitions from one part of the practice to the next. Studying from these teachers I have realized that ‘the space between’ point A and point B is just as important and requires just as much reverence as the final destination. You can’t rush transition, or you’ll fumble the ball and ruin the game. You can’t speed up winter by pining for spring. You need to accept where you are whenever you are, even if it is uncomfortable for you. Just breathe, make some adjustments and try to find some calm in the discomfort. The best transtional athletes stay calm in transtion, but they also realize that this is a place where the rules don’t necessarily exist. This is a place for creativity for those who can see past the constructs of the game.
So if you’ve been feeling a little “off” like me, take a nice deep breath and instead of scrambling to turn on the light in the darkness, how about letting your eyes adjust slowly, so you can make peace with the dark. There is beauty in transition. Some synonyms for transition also include: metamorphosis, shift and evolution. As Albert Einstein once said ” In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.” Find peace.